I feel like I'm telling God that I need him now all the time. I really was needing to be in church this morning. I didn't get to go Tuesday night and I just feel like I need to be close to the brethren and I need to feel the spirit and I wanted to set in meeting. I got out of bed and came in the living room, and my son Daniel is setting on the futon obviously sick. Well, I could probably make it still, just not with him, then the older one BJ comes out he and Shayla are sick and so is the baby. Well Now I can't go and leave them to take care of Megan when she is sick too. So I ask you to pray for me today. I really need to feel closer to the Lord today. I have these boughts of anger that I have to fight, and yesterday was a really bad day. My husband thought I was mad at him all day, but I wasn't, I was just angry that things aren't different. It makes me feel bad, but I can't help my felings, I just have to fight them harder.
Faith came in a couple days ago and said,"Mommy, I know you miss your baby, so you can have my care bear." I thought it was the sweetest thing ever. She won't give me her Baby Alive, but she will share her care bear ha ha. She is so precious.
Bobby is 14 now and has an admirer. She is NOT allowed to date at all until she is 16. However I thought it would be okay if she texted him and was just friends. This was a big discussion becasue daddy thought this young man was now the enemy in a war, for looking at his daughter. He didn't want her talking to him or going anywhere that this young man may be. It took a lot of discussing between daddy and I to convince him to let her text. That all being said, daddy found the phone this morning before Bobby got it and read a text that said, "what's up cutie." The flares hit the fan. He is not a happy daddy this morning. So now mom has some conjoling to do again. She still won't date till she's 16, but now she probably won't text till next year ha ha.
My kids are all trying to figure out what they are gonna do for the talent show. It is the cutest thing cause they all want to sing. So they are all probably gonna sing a single song. Then they wanna do a skit as well as different ideas with their cousins. So I think it's gonna be fun. I plan to sing at least one song Acapella. I can't sing with music at all. I don't know when to start or when to stop or breathe. Well, I can't do any of it with music ha ha. So my husband has picked a song he likes to hear me sing and then I have one and I kinda wanted to sing one for MEgan but we will see I may just do one. I love to sing I'm just not the greatest singer and my husband is blinded, or deafened by his love for me ha ha.
Cause he thinnks I am the best singer ever ha ha but he did tell me I couldn't win American Idol. He wasn't sure I would make it past the try outs ha ha. I love him anyway.
Well once again thanks for listening or reading my ramblings ha ha
3 comments:
I will continue to pray for you. There are so many parts of grieving, some don't seem to make sense, but are still necessary. I hope that the waves of pain are interspersed with times of calm and joy. Thinking about you.
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Thank you so much, and I am sorry I have made it sound like all waves of pain because God has been so good and we have lots of joy.. Megan is the light of our lives which I will remember to blog about more..I really do appreciate every prayer and thought in my direction though..It is hard at the times I think will be easiest and easy at the times I think should be hard though...
I'm just now reading people's blogs. I had heard about the loss of your baby through Marisela and we've been praying for you from time to time. I really can't imagine what you're going through, but I've just been praying that God will give you the strength and comfort you need at just the right moments.
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