Once again so thankful for the Faith

My husband's niece just had a death in her family. Her mother-in-law. I totally knew but it's easy to forget how much the brethren do for each other. She (my niece) called me yesterday to see what to do about the dinner after the funeral on Saturday. I asked doesn't the church put that together? Because they are having a church service at another church. They don't go to our church. Anyway, she said they told her they can go in on some chicken but for the most part they had to find someone to bring food. That's not a problem for me because I had already counted on taking my regular amount of food, and for funerals at the church I try to take three times what my family consumes at a single meal.
Anyway, I was so thankful for the brethren, I remember when our boys passed away there were so many people at the funerals, and who just came to see us at our house to offer comfort as well as their condolences, I really didn't realize the world doesn't have this. It's so important to me to be a light and to help those around me that it's just part of my life. But when I talk to someone in a situation where they don't have that it's crazy. I wonder where are there friends but I also realize I was raised to be a good sister and mom always told me to take extra to church dinners and funerals. So it's just who I am. But now I wonder if I should take even more. I really am in a delemma. Not quite sure how much is enough. I really want them to have plenty.
I read Stephanie's obituary and I was so sad I cried for a long time and I really didn't know her, but I am so devistated by her passing. She was only 41, and through an accident her life was taken. She had been out and when she came in she parked in the garage, we think she forgot to turn her truck off, and when she realized the garage had already filled with carbon monoxide and she couldn't get back in the house. It just made me so sad and made me ask was I the light I should have been, was I a good example. Could I have tried harder. Maybe I should have invited her to church. I always go through the what ifs but this time it was so much worse on me. She was only a year older than my husband.. Anyway I have tried to not think about it too much cause I just start crying and I don't think it's good for the baby for me to be emotional all the time. SO calm and relaxed is what I am trying all the time.

I am sooooo emotional this time. I cry all the time, I was watching the news and they were talking about how because our summer was late coming we weren't gonna have as good of a peach crop. I was just sobbing over the stupid peaches. My husband was not very sympathetic and kept asking why are you so upset again? I don't understand..It's kinda funny now, but I have had 8 children and have never had this problem before. I mean my emotions were different but not like this. I also have a second quilt top almost finished just have to quilt them both for the shower on the 29th. Then I want to do a quilt for my baby but I can't find an applique pattern for a monkey. If anyone has any ideas let me know. really want to get at least one quilt done...