When the Healing Waters Flow

God has been so good I can't complain. Every-time I ask he answers, probably not in the way I think it is gonna happen but he is the none-the-less. I have prayed so hard for Ezekiel, he has had so much pain, and the answer from the health professionals is to give him medication. I really didn't want that but there's not a lot I could do. Anyway, today they came in to give him the pain meds and he was setting up in bed and he asked "what is that?" The nurse told him it was for his pain. He told her I don't have pain so why do I need that? She said "sweety that's not possible, you just had a major surgery 4 days ago. You have to have a lot of pain. Don't try to be a hero." He said, "actually I am already a hero, and god took the pain away cause the medicine scares my mom" So the nurse left that was at 7 o'clock this morning. It is now almost 1 p.m. and still he has no pain. The nurse came in and changed his bandages and asked if he had changed his mind and he said no. She then told me she thought he would be in excruciating pain by now but he has gotten in the floor and played with his car, and his lady bug , as well as his stuffed animals. He has gotten tired and is now taking a nap. However, no pain meds today. God did this for me, I have been so worried because they say you can get addicted to morphine, but god took care of it for me. I am so very thankful, I know I wouldn't make it through this trial without god at my side holding my hand.

Ezekiel truly is my hero right now, I keep telling him this and he replies, "just don't kiss me mom" He hates it when we kiss him. He always wipes it off. when I worry and start saying things out loud about it. He always replies,"just pray mom" It is inspiring that he has that much faith. Yesterday he told me god said it's gonna be all right. And today when the doctor said he probably gets to go home tomorrow, he said I told you so. Ezekiel is so precious to me, as well as my husband and the other kids. Yesterday just thinking about not having him here had me in tears. He leaned over not knowing what I was crying about and said,"if you talk to god you will feel better." He was right and I did.

So tomorrow we get to go home Lord Willing, and I am so excited. My older girls have deep cleaned and washed walls, they also have kept the house up since I have been here with Ezekiel and I am so thankful. They are such good girls, they have done such a good job. I couldn't have managed without them.. I feel so dependent on others right now. But hopefully I can draw even closer to the Lord.

Now I have another story to tell. I was having a dream a couple weeks ago, in my dream I kept playing with this little blonde headed blue eyed boy. His features were so clear and his hair was almost white it was so blonde. I really thought I was dreaming about my son John who passed away 9 years ago, there was no volume in the dream it was like a silent movie. But I was getting so much comfort. I have wanted to dream of him for 9 years and never did it happen. Anyway, I found out I am expecting, and that night I had the dream again, only the sound was turned on. I picked him up and hugged him and said I love you sooo much. You are such a blessing then I laid him in his crib, and I said do you want to take a nap Mikey? Then I watched him close his eyes and I woke up. I had such a peaceful feeling after that. I had some complications with Faith and have been kinda scared. Anyway, Billy came home from work that evening and said I picked a boy's name. I was kinda excited to tell him maybe we should think of Michael. And he said God showed me to name our son Michael. I had to start crying, then I told him about my dream. Isn't that a wonderful thing that god showed us both at the same time. It was so awesome. Billy and I made an agreement years ago that he would name the boys and I would name the girls, and so far it has worked out pretty well. Anyway we still need prayers which I think sometimes I am a broken record saying that. However, it's true. Even though Zeke is doing so much better right now I know it could go the other way. Please help us to pray that god's will will be done but if it's his will Ezekiel won't get anymore infection. I would really appreciate it.