Getting Baptised

Okay so Saturday we went to the lake and let the kids just plain have fun. They played in the water for about an hour when this large group of people came down to the water clapping and singing. I kept saying their gonna baptise someone but everyone thought I was making a funny. Sure enough after a bit two of the men got into the water. We couldn't hear what they were saying but they talked for a bit and a kid walked down to them and was baptised. Everyone clapped and the kid walked back up to the shore and set off to himself on the picnic table in the back. We watched this with nine people. I received soooo much comfort. Your gonna think it's silly probably but I made my kids get out of the water out of respect, they weren't very thrilled with me though.
Any way the comfort came because I really thought about how much love there is in the faith. I have a hard time getting things across like I think them so bear with me. These kids were baptised and then walked off by themselves. When I was baptised, I was immediately met at the beach with a couple blankets, after they layed on hands everyone came and greeted and hugged me. I felt such a joy and peace at the same time. These kids looked so alone.
There are times I take for granted the faith. I think to myself this is how it should be and this person should be doing this or that person should be doing that. I feel alone because of my choices and what I allow myself to feel. I think of hospitality as one thing when I see another all around me. I don't feel hospitality is call ahead seating ha ha. But at the same time it's really not my place to say. Anyway I have been down lately for reasons that are hard for me to explain. But I felt like god showed me it's all in my head. So I am going to try harder to make things easier on myself.