Roll On......

I am facing a trial I never thought would be put in my way, and I really need prayers. I don't feel like I can say exactly what it is because I'm not the only one facing it, but I REALLY need you to pray for me RIGHT NOW.
I have a lot of anger toward someone right now and I don't want that. I want to be able to forgive and forget. I know I can because I have in the past.
But this brings me to the point of this blog. Can you feel like god has put to much on you, that you can't bear any more? Well we know god won't give us more than we can handle, because his word tells us so. But can we feel like he has, I have to say I have felt that way, but only long enough to "get my head in the game". When I realized I thought that way I immediately refocused my mind to the things that are important and realized that the trials were not trivial however they could be worse. Every time I have went through a trial in the last ten years I have had to remind myself of this and it makes it better. Seriously, even now I know my trial that I am facing now could be worse. I have faced a lot(who hasn't right)and every time I can look back and say god was with me and he protected me and my children. Even at times when I didn't see the protection part at first, I realized later that he was there, that even though something bad happened, it could have been worse. I remember when my son passed away, at first I was numb then later that evening it was like satan just jumped into my head and I thought, where was god, why didn't he protect my baby? I started praying as soon as I realized my thoughts and asking god to show me why this had happened, and I have to say I grew up alot in that first week. I had a lot of growing up to do and god couldn't get through to me any other way. He had tried in different ways, I would call it a trial and go on but I needed to look at the deeper meaning behind my trials cause god was trying to show and teach me something. And I learned a lot, that life is to short for little piddly fights, John was here and gone so quick, and did I do a good job of showing and telling him that the lord loved him and that I loved him. After I reflected on his life I think I could have done better. I did try to tell him everyday that I loved him, and I would sing of gods love to him all the time. His favorite song was Beautiful Star of Bethlehem, as I would sing he would say go faster mamma. Anyway, I'm getting off the point, our trials are lessons in life to teach us to be stronger and so we will draw closer to god. As we face these trials we are literally working out our souls salvation.
Everyone already knew these things I'm sure, just needed to remind myself of what is important in my life, and that things will work out.
Anyway I know I keep repeating myself but I really do need your prayers.