One Day I will

I am so undecided about how I feel I wanna say...I am happy. But that kinda seems wrong of me because our baby just died. However that's how I feel. I feel like God has been so good to us, what right do I have to be sad all the time. I don't want to be sad or unhappy, though I have my days today I am happy. God has had great mercy on me and my children.
The week before last I started getting dizzy every time I stood up. I can deal with that so I just kept going after a day of that if I wasn't careful I would faint, then a day after that I started having extreme stomach pains. I was starting to get scared and my husband was pretty worried, my eyes were getting dark. So we prayed and I felt I was shown to stop drinking the Pepsi throwback that I had started drinking. It all stopped. Aparently I can't have something in it which is weird cause it's only regular sugar. I am however gonna stick with what I've been shown and stay away from it.
Elizabeth has had a slight cough for a couple weeks, on Tuesday she was sitting on the couch and all the sudden started complaining of chest pains. It scared me really bad. I went in my room and was just finished praying, I had sat on my bed and Faith my baby came in and said, "mommy we need to call the elders". I knew why she wanted to but I wanted to hear her reasoning so I asked her why. She basically told me that if she had hurt her wrist she would want me to call the elders and since Elizabeths chest hurt that she really needed them so god could have mercy. I called my husband and told him and he immediately called them to pray at home or work because it was the middle of the day. So anyway Elizabeth felt so much better today, I am so very thankful.
Bobby has an admirer. She is not allowed to date until she is 16 however we have allowed her to talk to the boy by text and phone. I have been so enthused by her grownup attitude. She really likes this boy but she understands our position and has chosen to follow the rules, and not beg or fight us. I am so thankful for her right now she's been such a comfort this last month I don't know what I would do without her.
Megan is the cutest baby ever... have probably said that more times than I can count. She has started touching my face with her little fist when I talk to her it is so adorable. I had a hard time holding her for a little bit just a couple weeks but now that I'm over that(thank the lord)she doesn't want me to put her to sleep. It's kinda funny cause we have to be playing or I have to be talking and she won't lay back in my arms. She's such a smart baby. We do adore her.

Anyway just giving a small update..