Encouraged

I am so encouraged right now. I have had a lot of issues that nobody really knew about things that were so hard to deal with. Some things between my husband and I, things that happened when my baby was born that were very hard to get over with. I felt I wasn't entitled to my feelings that I was wrong and hurting for the wrong reasons. Human feelings that were destroying me. I talked to my husband and we talked to an elder who basically said we were second guessing ourselves. That seems silly and obvious but to hear it outright just put my ducks back in their rows and helped me through. I have reset my feelings and I am doing so much better. I have resolved to visit more, help more and be the best sister I can be.
Tonight my family is going to Brother Joshua and Sister Kayleens house and we are taking dinner. We hope to help encourage them. Lord willing we will be in heaven for eternity with them and we want them to know how loved they are. We plan to start with one family a week and visit them all. This is just a start I hope. I want to be encouraged and nnot sad or down. Everyone needs to help me and tell me not to look at the bad side..Look at the bright side of everything.
I joined Secret sisters this year again and I am so enthused. This one sister chosen by fate or whatever you wanna call it...I drew her name from a hat kinda...will recieve my thoughts almost everyday this year. I bought several cards to give herwith gifts and if I feel to I will mail her a card. I think this is an extension to my living the faith. Showing this special sister that she is loved all year this year if I can. And I can ha ha..
I keep hearing these stories about my dad and I love hearing them. It really encourages me to hear how much he loved the brethren. How much he loved the lord and especially how much he loved his family. I miss him soo much and he has been gone for 16 years. It's not like that hole gets smaller..It will always be. I found a new picture of John my son who has been gone for about 10 years well almost. Anyway it's a picture at my brothers wedding and I get so much joy from seeing him on my sister in laws wall. It means so much to me to know he touched others peoples lives and that he is still remembered. He was so precious to me, and his pictures are just as precious..well almost.
My sister Dawnette married a man in the world. He is a very nice man, and is part of our family. A couple weeks ago their oldest daughter got sick and he took her to the hospital. She was diagnosed with Lupus.. This is such a hard trial for my sister, her husband, and her daughter to go through. Rachelle is just 14 and has this disease that will probably be with her the rest of her life. I say probably because according to the doctors it is un-healable. But I know God can have mercy and heal her. My sister got a profocy that told her god brought this trial for a reason and he would be with her through it. This was a great comfort for her but also she felt like it was saying Rachelle won't be healed anytime soon. Anyway I just wanted to ask for your prayers fro my sister.