God is smarter than everyone but I am smarter than you mom.

God is smarter than everyone, but I am smarter than you mom. These were the words my son spoke to me yesterday as they were preparing for another surgery. We brought him in for the follow up appointment on Friday and the doctor immediately admitted him to the hospital. They found a large abcess in his stomach cavity. I was so scared and still have a lot of fear that this will come back. I got a little braver than I should have probably, and asked the doctor what would happen if we just didn't sign any papers and decided against the surgery and his response was "are you gonna make me say this in front of your son?" I was just so upset I spent the night on the computer trying to find an alternative that they would accept to the surgery, but aparently this abcess was behind something else so he couldn't go any other way. And as I keep reminding myself there is a reason for everything and god could have taken this away. So obviously we are going through this for a reason.
Ezekiel's answer was that we can go home and then go on vacation, when I said I didn't think that would work that's when he told me this. He is such a smart little boy and we love him so much. He woke up Friday morning in a fair amount of pain and when I asked him if he wanted me to call someone to pray, he asked me to call the bald elder(Bro Merl Morris) and Bro. Allen and Sis. Susan Shamburg. I actually failed him a bit. I had Billy call the Shamburgs, but I just said the elders. Then when we got up here and the doctor told us the bad news I remembered he asked me to call so I called Sis. Linda and asked them to pray. I did not however tell her Zeke had asked me to call the bald elder.
Yesterday, a nurse popped her head in the door and said good luck, she was going off shift and really fell in love with Ezekiel's personality. Anyway, as soon as she closed the door again Ezekiel said, "she should have said bad luck cause that's all I have." I was so saddened by his outlook, so I started pointing out good points and the fact that kids all over have worse luck than him. But the bad attitude is persisting. Aunt Heather was playing a video game with Billy and Ezekiel wanted to play, he started pressing buttons and pretty soon he was crying. I was all over that and told him maybe we shouldn't have tried so soon cause he was in so much pain. He was just sobbing, then a minute later he was calmed down a bit and he sobbed out "Aunt Heather didn't even give me a chance to hit her". He wasn't hurting he was a poor sport about the game. So Aunt Heather then played again and let him win four or five more times. When he was done he said Scorpions good. Right now as I type Zeke and Billy are playing the fighting game and they keep throwing back and for "cheater" or Ezekiel will say"give me a chance da da" They are finally gonna watch a movie cause Ezekiel won a couple times.
I actually just got on here to check my email and decided to look at my blog. I got soooo much comfort from your comments. I was praying that god would send me comfort cause I have cried so much I thought there were no more tears, then I looked at the comments and my eyes filled again. I am so thankful to have this wonderful God who knows my needs. I really needed the strength I was given today. Ezekiel is such a small little boy and it isn't easy to watch him go through things that I can't fix. I am really scared, well they said when I finally get to take him home he will still have an open wound, this scares the tar out of me. I am not so good with blood, and to actually have to clean and care for an open wound it's kinda scarey. But I know God can grant me the strength to do it. He has given me strength in harder situations. And I know he is with me in this situation.
Anyway if you remember us please pray for our family, we just need strength and comfort to get through this.

One more thing if any of you can see the weirdness happening on the right of my page and you know how to fix it please let me know. I have tried fro a very long time and can't get it. It's pictures and words from an earlier post entitled "happier times." Like I said, just let me know if you see it and how to fix it thanks.